24/3/2010

Hi i am back,

I feel very useless i thinking why i am in the world living, ppl say me fool even my parent say me a fool, Yyyy... so many ppl say me a fool??? I kw i am a fool, y must i in this world wad is the use of in the world??? I only like a maid or a sandbag ppl use me and blame me. WAD THE USE WHEN I AM IN THE WORLD, i yesterday cant sleep till 1am, i been thinking "y i am in this world y" then i fall asleep after that i have bad dreams then i wake up at 4am, Y i am in this world y??????

SK will be thinking abt this "why i am in this world?" "wad is the use of me??" "why i am a fool"

8/3/2010

My mother don know the reason why i keep things in my heart and nv say it out, she don know at all she keep thinking that i don wan to say is not i don wan... Is just that i don wan say, Ok when i saw young i tell my mother abt the problems that i have and i got scolded keep on scold me.. till i don dare to say it out cas i have this fear that ppl will scold me le i don kw wad to do? who can tell me??? She keep on say bad things abt Jia Ji my stead i just don get it.... Wad she wants form me, she is treating me as a gal after sch must go home, i don wan but she keep on ask me, one day she can call abt 100 over calls haiz i also feel "fan" lor don care her la

wad i am happy with i go for it,

i like the way i am now,

and i never ever wanted to leave Jia Ji

6/3/2010

this is a song that i hope Jia Ji u will listen

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFuqVabydAc

6/3/2010

Today i nv go out with Jia Ji she going some were so i stay at home then i help her and her friend to draw the 3D bus stop for them i have done le... I wan freedom only My stead give me but my mom nv give me for the past few yrs not only 50% even 1% also don have.... Jia Ji, i love u... You kw me i don dare to say there is a problems i keep in my heart even i cant take it i still keep force it in.... I have nightmares i already know there is somethings going to happen is always like that... like someone wan me to stop it wan me to help i don know this going to happen then i have nightmares, but if nth going to happen i will have no nightmares i have a very nice dreams... Why i always have this feeling and dreams that i kw somethings going to happen to the person who i know why i always wanted to have a good n happy life why cant i get it who can tell me why??? write in comments... i don wan to have a sad and unhappy life why i keep on get it i don wan

Jia Ji i am happy to kw u i will nv forget abt you

THANK YOU

2/3/2010

Today i also sad sad... Why??? i also don kw just that i feel like that don kw wad to do now.. haiz Who can tell me?? Well my stead Jia Ji she today not free cas she got somethings on so i nv meet her today i wish i can see her forever, well the truth always hurts but i am fine because i have use to it le so ya. haiz now they go for lunch but me, my friend and one of my classmate is still in the class we nv go later then go for lunch so early go nth to do......... Well Jia Ji, i will change my soft part of me to not that soft hearted, this time i try more harder to change... Tell you somethings i been trying for the past few years but i still the same my secondary sch friend "Li Qin" say i am a good guy that y You like me... Oh well my friends just like a water it come and go... I not like you your friends come and stay never go some only but not all.... I use to have 80 friends but now only 10plus or less why cas they come and go without saying they hate me because they ask me go out i never go out with them.... Jia Ji, i am very happy to know you, you treat me very good you never let me get bully,scold or beat up by people or die.... but for me i got beat up or scold or even bully by people or die i don mind at all, i don wan anythings happen to you don wan even i saw a person wanted to kill you with a knife i will run towards you and safe you using my life i don care i die, I die better then you die, "one die better then two die" but i will not let anyone blame you de i will let them kw is i willing too. Because


I LOVE YOU


thank you

1/3/2010

i wish deep in my heart that me and Jia Ji Relationship can last forever... I really don wan to leave her or break up with her i love Jia Ji... but one one person don like Jia Ji the person is my mother she keep thinking that she is bad but she is not..... all this months i wantd her to have a good life,happiness and heathy that's all. On 23/2/2010 i have this feeling somethings going to happen but i don't know tell 12.41PM i receive a msg Jia Ji she use her friend handphone to msg me she say she stuck in the lift i was shock then i was so worry abt her i know in the lift there is no air de and i cant walk out of school like that i thinking and find the lift number just to call for help.. but i cant found so i wish that what if i got this kind of mind power that can talk to my stead and i also wish i can just use my mind to pull the whole lift down to first story but that will not happen cas there in ths world don have this kind of powers oh well hope i can have this kind of powers then i can help my stead Jia Ji le

I LOVE YOU JIA JI

Thank you